If you want to leave, I won’t stop you.

I once asked you, if the world were to end, who would you want to be with? Without hesitation, you looked into my eyes and said with utmost sincerity, “Mom and you!”

But the world hadn’t ended yet, but our end came early. You said you were leaving, you said life wasn’t just about love, you said I could find someone better, you said sorry, thank you, I love you, goodbye! I didn’t even see your expression or hear your tone when you said those words. I don’t know what you were thinking when you said them, because you used harsh and cold words to declare to me: We’re over!

I passively accepted all of this. You were the one who said we should be together, and I agreed! You were the one who suggested breaking up, and my objections were ineffective! This is our relationship. Anything I say is superfluous. Although letting go hurts, holding on hurts even more, so I choose to let go. At least this way, only I am hurting!

I once naively thought that holding hands meant making a promise, that being committed meant being together forever, and that loving each other meant being able to be together. But it turns out that all of this was just wishful thinking.

You’ll never know how much I love you, you’ll never know how foolish I am in loving you. You also don’t know how tiring it is to love you, but why, even though loving you is so exhausting, have I still not stopped loving you?

I won’t tell you that I used to think about you every single moment, and everything I did reminded me of you. Now that you’re gone, I won’t tell you that I don’t miss you anymore! Believe it or not!

I won’t tell you that I used to overthink things for ages because of something you said, and then I’d lose my appetite and sleep. Now that you’re gone, I won’t tell you that I’ll never overthink things again, believe it or not!

I won’t tell you that before, every time we argued, you’d say you needed some peace and quiet and leave me hanging. I’d be wiping away tears while browsing the internet, thinking about what to buy for you. Now that you’re gone, I won’t tell you that I’m no longer angry with you, and I won’t cry because of you anymore. Believe it or not!

I won’t tell you that before, every time I saw your message, I would immediately pick up my phone and reply quickly. While waiting for your reply, I never dared to let my phone out of my sight, because I was afraid of missing your message. Now that you’re gone, I won’t tell you that I no longer spend all day holding my phone waiting for your message. This is true, because waiting won’t bring you anything. You’ll definitely believe that!

I won’t tell you that I used to be like a madman, my emotions controlled by you. One second I’d be crying and sobbing, the next I’d be laughing and joking. But now that you’re gone, I’m back to normal. There’s no great sorrow or joy, just a peaceful, uneventful life. Believe it or not! Because without you, my heart is like a stopped electrocardiogram. I won’t be overjoyed by your appearance, nor will I be heartbroken by your indifference. Now, I belong only to myself!

I won’t tell you that they used to call me a cold-blooded animal, that they said I had no emotions or desires. That’s because I gave you all my passion and tenderness. But now that you’re gone, I’ve become aloof again, but also withdrawn. I really don’t want to tell you this!

Maybe you don’t care about any of this at all, because you’re already gone, and only I’m left behind. But how can a breakup be so carefree and easy? I can stop clinging on, but that doesn’t mean I won’t be heartbroken. I look through our old photos, seeing those sweet smiles and affectionate eyes, and I smile again, then I start crying. You’re gone? Is it over between us? We’ll never have the chance to cuddle up and take pictures together again, to laugh and play, to exchange loving glances, to care for each other so tenderly, right? Maybe we’ll never see each other again in this life! It all came so suddenly, because I thought we’d be together forever. Yet, it all seems so natural, because I felt like I was prepared every day for you to leave at any moment.

A relationship can only begin if both people agree, but a breakup is truly over once one party declares it’s over. In most cases, if a girl says “let’s break up” ten times and the guy doesn’t agree, the relationship is unlikely to end. However, if the guy initiates the breakup and the girl cries, pleads, and begs relentlessly, there might still be a chance to salvage the relationship.

But we’re different. You’re not your average guy because you’re calm and rational enough. So if you say you want to break up, it’s 100% certain, because you never test the waters with the idea of ​​breaking up. I know you too well.

I admit I have a bad temper; I admit I’m too clingy; I admit I’m not good enough; I admit I’m naive; I admit I don’t understand life; I admit, let me use a song lyric to express it: It’s clearly because I’m not good enough that you want to run away. If you want to leave, I won’t stop you; forced love won’t last long…

The reason I think this way is to take all the blame on myself, so that I can accept the fact that you left me. This way, I won’t be able to refute why you left me, because it’s because I wasn’t good enough!

I admit that the moment you broke up with me, my mind went numb, and my head felt like it was about to explode with blood. The day I had been dreading had finally come. I won’t tell you that I felt like I was preparing every day for you to say you were leaving me, while every day I also clung to the hope that we would be together forever.

I admit that I am a person who is particularly insecure in love, so I used all my courage to take this step in love for you. But I didn’t expect that the result would be the same as what I initially thought. Although I always have a sliver of hope, even if it is just a sliver of hope, I still bravely persist. After all, we once mustered up the courage to be together, so how can I easily let go? Therefore, I have always been the willing prisoner in this battle of love.

I thought I was mature enough, I thought I was tolerant enough, I thought I loved you enough, and that we could grow old together. But in love, we’re no exception. Happy people are all alike; every unhappy person is unhappy in their own way. We broke up too, and our reasons for breaking up were so weak and powerless. Distance? Family? Or not loving enough? Maybe forever doesn’t exist, or even if it does, it doesn’t apply to us!

After the breakup, I started diligently searching for stories of couples breaking up around me. This way, I could comfort myself: “Look at them, they loved each other so much, but they still broke up. Look at them, they dated for so long, but they still broke up. Look at them, they got married, but they still argue all the time. Look at them, they got married after only knowing each other for a month, and there’s him, there’s her… I heard they got married too, but not to the one they dated for years, but they’re very happy now!” Looking at others and comparing myself, I suddenly felt that heartbreak wasn’t so bad. Who says a person can only love one person in their lifetime? So, even though you’re gone, I’ll definitely fall in love with someone else, right? I instilled this thought in myself just to accept the fact that you’re gone. As for whether it works, I don’t know, but what else could I do but comfort myself like this? You still left, you still won’t come back, will you? And all I can do is accept reality as soon as possible and start over.

I remember that day I went to a bar with my friend. The singer, while interacting with the crowd, asked a question: “Can anyone tell me what love is?” Then I heard everyone clamoring about their own definitions of love. The singer, holding the microphone, asked a guy at the table closest to him, “What do you think love is?” The guy said, “Love is companionship, because companionship is the most enduring declaration of love.” Then I heard everyone applauding and cheering. At that moment, the singer turned to me, put the microphone to my mouth, and asked, “So what do you think love is?” Without hesitation, I blurted out, “Love is being together!”

Yes, love is about being together; only when two hearts draw near can they warm each other. I tried my best in this relationship, and I’m exhausted. If you want to leave, I won’t stop you. From now on, I won’t talk about the past, because it’s over; I won’t talk about the future, because it’s a future without you. If you want to leave, then go. I’ll be fine, and I’ll wish you all the best! I wish you all the best!

If you want to leave, I won’t stop you…

When someone you deeply love wants to leave you, would you try to stop them? I think most people would! Because they hope that the person they love can stay by their side forever. But how many people can’t even bring themselves to say the final words of farewell? Maybe it’s because they’re tired of loving, maybe it’s because… they truly understand that they can’t keep this person. So, what if it were you? If the person you deeply love wants to leave, would you try to stop them?